Thursday, January 28, 2010

Head games


I play head games with myself, I'm sure it's unhealthy in some ways and healthy in others. I work out worse cases scenarios in my brain and then when things don't go that bad I somehow feel a little better about life. It's been one of those days, where I find I'm talking to myself all day in my brain...trying to make sense of things that make no sense to me. We are still at home and will be as long as Kyle stays stable until next week...his team is still trying to figure some things out and while I know they are trying I feel frustrated. Kyle's off a bit and has been the last few days, those subtle changes that we notice that may not be alarming in some kids...but with Kyle it makes us anxious. Makes his dr anxious...big sigh. We are going to start replacing his fluids thru his IV tomorrow...this will keep us home more but increases us messing with our life line the PICC. We got word that Columbus can't take him until March...I'm still trying to process that. I am still living life for today. Enjoying today's small moments...like when Kyle saw Alex get off the bus, he turned and looked at me and said.."there's my girl" So excited to see his sister...makes me melt..just a little.


xoxo

K


My girlfriend http://www.miraclemonsterdesigns.blogspot.com/ did this blog and this picture of the boys..she's pretty amazing...and very talented! :)

6 comments:

McTriplet Mommy said...

"There's my girl" - oh I want to SQUEEZE him!!!

Hang in there, Babe. Love you.

Kara

Missy said...

What a sweet boy... and precious picture of the "brothers"!

I wish there was something I could do to make it all better with Kyle. I hope he stays healthy until March. I know that seems like an eternity from now.

I've got the same conversations going on in my head and right now, the conversations always end with me being angry and solving nothing. I'm a "fixer" and when I can't fix the situation, I get so down.

I'm thinking of you guys and hoping for better days.

Missy

Shari said...

"There's my girl!" Just precious!
I play headgames with myself, too when it comes to our youngest who has some unique special needs! I thought I was the only person who did that! I continue in prayer for all of you!

Lauren said...

Could they get any cuter!?!

I can only imagine the imagines you go through in your mind. We're continuing to hold you in our thoughts and hearts.

Lauren

Karri said...

Such sweet boys! Love the picture!
You inspire me, and remind me that we have to cherish every moment of every day.

In my prayers daily.
Hugs!
-Karri

Jessica said...

Love the picture! I am praying for peace and relief for you all. Thinking of you and sending hugs from CA.